Author:Debora

Journey towards joy

February 3, 2016
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As we approach the day our son arrives, I can’t help but feel this amazing sense of gratitude and excitement for what lies ahead of us.  There’s also some anxiety and a little bit of fear of the unknown, of course, so exercising trust has been a constant aspect of these final days of pregnancy.  Well, to be completely honest, exercising trust has been a constant practice throughout these whole 9 months.  For someone who has always struggled with fear, learning how to wait and relax in between doctors’ appointments and ultrasounds was somewhat challenging. Yet, it taught me that I’m not in control of anything and that the miracle of life doesn’t depend on any of us.  It’s simply that, a miracle, and it’s totally dependent upon grace.  But oh, how hard it was to let go and trust!  As each day passed with this new life growing inside of me, I was constantly reminded that it was okay to trust again, that it was okay to believe again, and finally give myself the chance to experience the joy of being pregnant again.